Okay, so the past couple days have been hell for me. I went through a personal crisis on Wednesday and decided that I didn't want to do the nursing program anymore, and that I would quit. It was spured on by the meeting I had with my clinical instructor and the head of clinicals. I realized that I had had enough. It just wasn't my thing. So I called my parents and talked to them for an hour instead of going to my Assesment lecture. I made up my mind to quit. Thursday I skipped my lab. Friday, I had an appointment with my nursing advisor and told her I was quitting to pursue a major in French. She immediately recommended that I go talk to the Modern Languages Department, which I did. I talked to the head of the department about switching to a French major and what to do with, etc. Then I went over to ACAC and officially changed my major to French with a minor in English/Writing.
The thing that sucks is that I'm stuck in my current classes until the end of the semester and I passed the point where I could drop any of them. Of course, to remain under my dad's insurance, I need to be a full-time student so I can't drop all of them. But at any rate, I'm stuck in classes that I don't give a damn about that I have no motivation whatsoever to finish because I am not a nursing major anymore and will never use the classes. I don't even think I need the electives.
So now I'm behind in my classwork with a looming Pharmacology exam on Monday that I'm now scrambling to study for, plus a scholarly paper draft that I've only started.
So I haven't written much of anything these past couple days. And now I'm behind. I should be at about 10,000 words by the end of the day, but I'm currently at around 6,000 and it's noon. And I have no idea when I'm going to find the time to write and catch up. I keep getting distracted by everything and I have almost no motivation to write right now. I don't want to quit, though. I'm not going to give up. I think my plot is finally starting to move again, albeit slowly. And I hate almost everything I've written so far. It's just awful writing. I know it's supposed to be about quantitiy over quality, but my Inner Editor won't shut up. And I'm worried that the story is going to end before I reach 50,000 words.
Word count: 6,063
Characters killed: 0
Number of fourth wall breakages: 2
Cups of tea consumed: 1
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Day 2 Woes
I know that today is the 3rd day of NaNoWriMo, but I never got around to posting last night because I was deep in the woes of day 2. I spent most of yesterday studying for my test-out so I didn't get much done besides that. But I passed the test-out. That's all that matters. I have another one tomorrow to make up for the one I FAILED the first time. So I'm going to be studying today. Somehow. I also have to write a 3-page scholarly paper and study for a Pharmacology test by Monday. I'm trying not to put these things off until the very last minute BUT IT'S NOT WORKING! Arrgh!
Anyway, back to my story. It went SO slowly yesterday. It was awful. One of my characters had a HUGE paragraph of dialogue explaining backstory.
Today isn 't much better.
I broke the fourth wall already. It's only day three. WTF? This is gonna be a long month.
"Aw, fuck this. I hate silences," Ayden finally said, angrily running his fingers through his short hair. "I don't care how stupid this sounds. How old are you and Keian?"
"That's a very good question. I'm not sure if the author has assigned us an age," Keian answered.
"Well pick one then," Ayden said. "It's probably irrelevant to the plot, but whatever."
"Keian and I are seveneen, mere babies in the eyes of our poeple," Kayden said. "How about you?"
"I choose to be seventeen, since the author didn't choose an age for me either," Ayden said. "Do you have any siblings, I mean, besides Keian?"
"No." Kayden shook his head. "Kayden and I are the only children."
"But you're Kayden," Ayden pointed out.
"You know what I mean!" Kayden hissed.
Ayden smirked. "It seems like the author still can't keep you two straight."
Can we get back to the story, please? Thank you.
See what I mean? Epic fail. And the NaNoWriMo website is being wonky, which REALLY annoys me.
Word count: 3, 385
Characters killed: 0
Number of Fourth Wall Breakages: 1
Cups of tea consumed: 0
Anyway, back to my story. It went SO slowly yesterday. It was awful. One of my characters had a HUGE paragraph of dialogue explaining backstory.
Today isn 't much better.
I broke the fourth wall already. It's only day three. WTF? This is gonna be a long month.
"Aw, fuck this. I hate silences," Ayden finally said, angrily running his fingers through his short hair. "I don't care how stupid this sounds. How old are you and Keian?"
"That's a very good question. I'm not sure if the author has assigned us an age," Keian answered.
"Well pick one then," Ayden said. "It's probably irrelevant to the plot, but whatever."
"Keian and I are seveneen, mere babies in the eyes of our poeple," Kayden said. "How about you?"
"I choose to be seventeen, since the author didn't choose an age for me either," Ayden said. "Do you have any siblings, I mean, besides Keian?"
"No." Kayden shook his head. "Kayden and I are the only children."
"But you're Kayden," Ayden pointed out.
"You know what I mean!" Kayden hissed.
Ayden smirked. "It seems like the author still can't keep you two straight."
Can we get back to the story, please? Thank you.
See what I mean? Epic fail. And the NaNoWriMo website is being wonky, which REALLY annoys me.
Word count: 3, 385
Characters killed: 0
Number of Fourth Wall Breakages: 1
Cups of tea consumed: 0
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
It Has Begun...
Today is Tuesday November 2. It's officially the second day of NaNoWriMo.
I stayed up late on October 31 just so I could start writing when midnight came. And ten minutes in, I started over. I only wrote half a page, so it's okay, but still. If I'm already starting over in the FIRST TEN MINUTES of NaNoWriMo, it's gonna be a long month.
I need to find a way to silence my Inner Editor.
Maybe I should consider threatening her with throwing her into Lake Superior...
Writing went smoothly for a while, but then I got stuck for a while. And I absolutely hate what I've written so far. It's so wordy and redundant and just horrible. But it's normal. I just have to make my Inner Editor SHUT UP and keep plowing through. I ended up writing a LOT during my Patho lecture, especially after my laptop battery decided to die with an hour remaining in the lecture so all I could do was sit there and listen to her. And the saddest part? I don't think I really missed anything important because all the information we need is in the Power Point, which she gives us a copy of. So yeah. Don't think I missed anything.
The plot is going smoothly with only a few deviations so far from the outline I made, but they're very minor. The three main characters, Keian, Kayden, and Ayden have been introduced so the love triangle can begin. Did I mention that Keian and Kayden are twins? Oh yes, this is going to be interesting. I'm STILL wondering where the fuck my brain came up with the twincest. It's awful and sick and wrong but I'm going with it. I wrote twincest before, but they were the only two people left on the Earth, so they didn't really have a choice. This time they do. What the hell is wrong with me?! Seriously.
The worst part is the blatant lack of description in my novel and when it is there, it's just terrible. *bangs head against desk*
I suppose I should explain things, characters and whatnot. The characters introduced thus far are:
Keian-Prince of the Elves. Younger twin brother of Kayden.
Kayden-Prince of the Elves. Older twin brother of Keian.
Lady Mirai-Mother of Keian and Kayden. Ruler of the Elven kingdom of Kuhala.
Elenar-bodyguard of Keian.
Naharal-bodyguard of Kayden.
Ayden-prince of the human kingdom of Mer. Heir to the throne.
Connor- (only mentioned thus far) Ayden's younger brother.
Rei-Ayden's bodyguard.
So now you know. Those are the characters so far and a little about them. I'll probably add more to them later and stuff. And there are going to be a LOT more characters.
I did figure out the problem I had with my outline. I simply decided to end the book at a different spot, thus eliminating that problem, at least for now. But I'm sure I'll have to revisit it later when I write that book.
All that was yesterday.
Today? Have barely written anything. A paragraph, maybe. But I've been busy with school work. I no longer have clinical since I didn't pass the written medication administration exam so I have no classes on Tuesday, but I'm filling the void with other school work. For instance, today, I finished reading a chapter for my Foundations class and practiced the test-outs on the eyes and ears since I had my test-out today. I did fairly well, by the way. I missed a few things, but I still passed. So that has sucked up the majority of my day, hence why I haven't written anything today. But there's still time. Even though I need to work on making notecards for my upcoming Pharmacology exam. I really have to stop putting things off. It's not healthy.
Word count: 2,028 words
Characters killed: 0
Breakdowns: 1
Cups of tea consumed: 0
I stayed up late on October 31 just so I could start writing when midnight came. And ten minutes in, I started over. I only wrote half a page, so it's okay, but still. If I'm already starting over in the FIRST TEN MINUTES of NaNoWriMo, it's gonna be a long month.
I need to find a way to silence my Inner Editor.
Maybe I should consider threatening her with throwing her into Lake Superior...
Writing went smoothly for a while, but then I got stuck for a while. And I absolutely hate what I've written so far. It's so wordy and redundant and just horrible. But it's normal. I just have to make my Inner Editor SHUT UP and keep plowing through. I ended up writing a LOT during my Patho lecture, especially after my laptop battery decided to die with an hour remaining in the lecture so all I could do was sit there and listen to her. And the saddest part? I don't think I really missed anything important because all the information we need is in the Power Point, which she gives us a copy of. So yeah. Don't think I missed anything.
The plot is going smoothly with only a few deviations so far from the outline I made, but they're very minor. The three main characters, Keian, Kayden, and Ayden have been introduced so the love triangle can begin. Did I mention that Keian and Kayden are twins? Oh yes, this is going to be interesting. I'm STILL wondering where the fuck my brain came up with the twincest. It's awful and sick and wrong but I'm going with it. I wrote twincest before, but they were the only two people left on the Earth, so they didn't really have a choice. This time they do. What the hell is wrong with me?! Seriously.
The worst part is the blatant lack of description in my novel and when it is there, it's just terrible. *bangs head against desk*
I suppose I should explain things, characters and whatnot. The characters introduced thus far are:
Keian-Prince of the Elves. Younger twin brother of Kayden.
Kayden-Prince of the Elves. Older twin brother of Keian.
Lady Mirai-Mother of Keian and Kayden. Ruler of the Elven kingdom of Kuhala.
Elenar-bodyguard of Keian.
Naharal-bodyguard of Kayden.
Ayden-prince of the human kingdom of Mer. Heir to the throne.
Connor- (only mentioned thus far) Ayden's younger brother.
Rei-Ayden's bodyguard.
So now you know. Those are the characters so far and a little about them. I'll probably add more to them later and stuff. And there are going to be a LOT more characters.
I did figure out the problem I had with my outline. I simply decided to end the book at a different spot, thus eliminating that problem, at least for now. But I'm sure I'll have to revisit it later when I write that book.
All that was yesterday.
Today? Have barely written anything. A paragraph, maybe. But I've been busy with school work. I no longer have clinical since I didn't pass the written medication administration exam so I have no classes on Tuesday, but I'm filling the void with other school work. For instance, today, I finished reading a chapter for my Foundations class and practiced the test-outs on the eyes and ears since I had my test-out today. I did fairly well, by the way. I missed a few things, but I still passed. So that has sucked up the majority of my day, hence why I haven't written anything today. But there's still time. Even though I need to work on making notecards for my upcoming Pharmacology exam. I really have to stop putting things off. It's not healthy.
Word count: 2,028 words
Characters killed: 0
Breakdowns: 1
Cups of tea consumed: 0
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