Okay, so the past couple days have been hell for me. I went through a personal crisis on Wednesday and decided that I didn't want to do the nursing program anymore, and that I would quit. It was spured on by the meeting I had with my clinical instructor and the head of clinicals. I realized that I had had enough. It just wasn't my thing. So I called my parents and talked to them for an hour instead of going to my Assesment lecture. I made up my mind to quit. Thursday I skipped my lab. Friday, I had an appointment with my nursing advisor and told her I was quitting to pursue a major in French. She immediately recommended that I go talk to the Modern Languages Department, which I did. I talked to the head of the department about switching to a French major and what to do with, etc. Then I went over to ACAC and officially changed my major to French with a minor in English/Writing.
The thing that sucks is that I'm stuck in my current classes until the end of the semester and I passed the point where I could drop any of them. Of course, to remain under my dad's insurance, I need to be a full-time student so I can't drop all of them. But at any rate, I'm stuck in classes that I don't give a damn about that I have no motivation whatsoever to finish because I am not a nursing major anymore and will never use the classes. I don't even think I need the electives.
So now I'm behind in my classwork with a looming Pharmacology exam on Monday that I'm now scrambling to study for, plus a scholarly paper draft that I've only started.
So I haven't written much of anything these past couple days. And now I'm behind. I should be at about 10,000 words by the end of the day, but I'm currently at around 6,000 and it's noon. And I have no idea when I'm going to find the time to write and catch up. I keep getting distracted by everything and I have almost no motivation to write right now. I don't want to quit, though. I'm not going to give up. I think my plot is finally starting to move again, albeit slowly. And I hate almost everything I've written so far. It's just awful writing. I know it's supposed to be about quantitiy over quality, but my Inner Editor won't shut up. And I'm worried that the story is going to end before I reach 50,000 words.
Word count: 6,063
Characters killed: 0
Number of fourth wall breakages: 2
Cups of tea consumed: 1
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